I consider myself a very pretty girl. Sometimes my self-esteem can be lowered, but it can quickly be raised back to high. I have been "single" for about 5 months now and even though that is short compared to other people, I can still only help but wonder. During those months, I've had some ppl "holla" at me, but no one who genuinely wants to talk to me. And it's starting to affect me mentally!
Like seriously, why hasn't anybody just genuinely tried to talk to me. I mean we all have those nights were we just want that boo to be with us; we don't wanna go out and whatever else.
But as I was just thinking: it's not my time, or better yet, God's timing is perfect. Meaning, I just need to wait on the Lord.
Me having these "cravings" for wanting a boo or a boyfriend is not healthy on me for when someone actually does want to talk to me because I will be so excited about him coming to me that I wouldn't be focused on what is needed from me or my standards, if that makes sense.
So this is just basically a post with me stating my feelings about the situation.
I really am ready for the love word again but clearly I am not ready. If that makes sense. I need to focus on me and the plans God has set for me and everything else will fall into place.
I know when God says it's time it will be time.
So I guess I am consent with the fact that I probably won't get a boyfriend for a very long time. Just for the simple fact that I feel like I gotta have one.
So for now on, I am going to have a different outlook on the whole thing.
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